Latin: Let there be slaughter everywhere
This phrase reminds me of Cannibal Corpse, so I had to put it on here.
Before I start off this blog, there are probably a few things you should know:
1. I am an author, so I know how to use hyperboles, metaphors, and the like to make my blogs more interesting. So where I might say "all the time" I don't mean all the time.
2. I'm Bisexual, but I like boys 55% and girls 45% so even though I like them about the same, I like boys more.
3. I'm an honour student, so I'm smart. Deal with it.
4. All events and people are real, just exaggerated a little.
So now that we got those things cleared up....
I found out last night that my mom was shipping me off to Florida to live with my dad for Junior year of high school. It's not the fact that im moving in with my dad that's the problem, I love that fat man! But its the fact that she's sending me to my dad's house. I don't understand. It makes me feel like I'm so much of a problem that I have to be given to other people to take care of me. I'm not that unloveable. I know I'm not. But it's a fresh start and I guess I'm going to have to take it for what it is. A fresh start.
Today at school, I informed some of my friends already, and I cried. I never thought I was going to actually leave them. I just hope the classes I want to take are offered at my new school: John A. Ferguson. Don't worry, I'm still going to post blogs! It's just going to be with different people now, and hopefullty some of the same too. Like Lauren Mikeska, I promised her I was going to text her and write her every day. And Anthony Wardlaw, because that's just the way he is. Then there's Courtney Simmons, but she doesn't text me so much anyways, and I think she replaced me with Brianna Hanley. Of course there's Josh Rutland and Josh Villarreal, both of whom are in love with me. Well, I know Josh R. is, and I can debate Josh V.
Regardless, I know a few of my new characters.
There's Juan, who I call Biffle, so his full name doesn't have to go on here.
Alex, the son of the friend of the family.
Veronica Rodriguez, from summer camp.
This will be a good year I guess, right?
My weekend is ruined I guess. Oh well. I can find new parties with new people when I move.
Sorry for the short post!
Relationship Status: Date cancelled!
Birthday: 9.25
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Email: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
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Friday, May 14, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
nec spe, nec metu
Latin for: without hope, without fear
The favourite topic for today is the AP World History exam. Since I have signed my name to not talk about what was on the test, I guess I must talk about other things. The multiple choice qiestions were easy and hard, only because I didn't complete reading my review manual. I'm telling you, I've spent (Saturday... Sunday...) 5-6 days reading that thing and I only got to the Old Stuff section. Words of wisdom: start reading reviews earlier than about a week before the test. Why? Because the questions on the test I actually reviewed for was REALLY EASY and the material I didn't study was REALLY HARD. I answered 52 out of 70 questions. Not too shabby.
The essays were ok. The DBQ I murdered, the Continuities and Changes essay I bullshitted enough to get a pretty good score, but the Comparative essay was iffy. I don't think I got a pretty high score on that one. I did, however, do well enough on the test to finish 30 minutes early. The problem? I was BORED out of my MIND!! I actually got so bored I started drawing on the desk. To be honest. This is what I was trying to draw:
Although mine didn't look that good, lolz.
Having C lunch was different, but I was able to hang out with Kristina Somotas, but it was after lunch that I found out she and Jace Ard broke up. And, I didn't find out from her, but Jace himself. Apparently it happened a couple weeks ago? Unless I understood him wrong. It's a damn shame they broke up, too, because they were so cute together!
Lauren Mikeska and Cody Jackson are having some problems too, but I'm sure they will work out in the end. He just likes to be shone non-stop affection (girlfriend all over him) and Lauren is just a tad more distant (likes the boyfriend to show her he loves her, but not hang all over her). I vow to do whatever I can to help my favourite favourite couple!
Speaking of couples, Michael Simmons' girlfriend, Katelyn, called Brianna Hanley a slut, then a whore and said it was the same thing.
A. Bri is a virgin
B. A whore gets paid for sex
C. A slut DOESN'T get paid for sex.
and
D. If you wanted to say two things are the same: Easy and Slutty are the same, and Hoe and Whore are the same thing.
I'm glad we got that cleared up, world.
Another couple issue: How dare Chris Crocker let Nicole McDonald and another girl call his girlfriend, Courtney Simmons, trashy! She is not trash, she's sexy. Haters gotta be kidding me! They're just jealous that they arent as hot as Courtney and she got Chris. Yeah haters, they have each other. They make a super mix matched hot couple! Deuce Haters!! (Wow, I got crunk on your ass...)
And a personal shout out to Josh Rutland who will never read this: I'm not abusive. You're just pissed off I broke up with you and trying to move on like you should. You know I hate hurting you.
Regardless, I *sniff* smell a great weekend coming up now that I can chillax with my friends.
Relationship Status: Still no update on that date. Might not happen anytime in the near future
Birthday: 9/25
Contact Info:
Email: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone: Ask nicely!!
The favourite topic for today is the AP World History exam. Since I have signed my name to not talk about what was on the test, I guess I must talk about other things. The multiple choice qiestions were easy and hard, only because I didn't complete reading my review manual. I'm telling you, I've spent (Saturday... Sunday...) 5-6 days reading that thing and I only got to the Old Stuff section. Words of wisdom: start reading reviews earlier than about a week before the test. Why? Because the questions on the test I actually reviewed for was REALLY EASY and the material I didn't study was REALLY HARD. I answered 52 out of 70 questions. Not too shabby.
The essays were ok. The DBQ I murdered, the Continuities and Changes essay I bullshitted enough to get a pretty good score, but the Comparative essay was iffy. I don't think I got a pretty high score on that one. I did, however, do well enough on the test to finish 30 minutes early. The problem? I was BORED out of my MIND!! I actually got so bored I started drawing on the desk. To be honest. This is what I was trying to draw:
Although mine didn't look that good, lolz.
Having C lunch was different, but I was able to hang out with Kristina Somotas, but it was after lunch that I found out she and Jace Ard broke up. And, I didn't find out from her, but Jace himself. Apparently it happened a couple weeks ago? Unless I understood him wrong. It's a damn shame they broke up, too, because they were so cute together!
Lauren Mikeska and Cody Jackson are having some problems too, but I'm sure they will work out in the end. He just likes to be shone non-stop affection (girlfriend all over him) and Lauren is just a tad more distant (likes the boyfriend to show her he loves her, but not hang all over her). I vow to do whatever I can to help my favourite favourite couple!
Speaking of couples, Michael Simmons' girlfriend, Katelyn, called Brianna Hanley a slut, then a whore and said it was the same thing.
A. Bri is a virgin
B. A whore gets paid for sex
C. A slut DOESN'T get paid for sex.
and
D. If you wanted to say two things are the same: Easy and Slutty are the same, and Hoe and Whore are the same thing.
I'm glad we got that cleared up, world.
Another couple issue: How dare Chris Crocker let Nicole McDonald and another girl call his girlfriend, Courtney Simmons, trashy! She is not trash, she's sexy. Haters gotta be kidding me! They're just jealous that they arent as hot as Courtney and she got Chris. Yeah haters, they have each other. They make a super mix matched hot couple! Deuce Haters!! (Wow, I got crunk on your ass...)
And a personal shout out to Josh Rutland who will never read this: I'm not abusive. You're just pissed off I broke up with you and trying to move on like you should. You know I hate hurting you.
Regardless, I *sniff* smell a great weekend coming up now that I can chillax with my friends.
Relationship Status: Still no update on that date. Might not happen anytime in the near future
Birthday: 9/25
Contact Info:
Email: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone: Ask nicely!!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
esto quad es
On Monday at lunch, the conversation between Tori Reyna and I was quite an entertaining one. See, for some reason the subject of masterbation came up, and quickly the conversation went down hill from there.
"I couldn't see Lauren materbate," I said to Tori as i stared at Lauren Mikeska. Tori nodded.
"Yeah, she looks too innocent, thats why I can't see her having sex with Cody," he added.
"I couldn't see her having sex with Cody either. She looks like she would like it soft and loving, and he looks like he would like it hard and rough," I said. Lauren looked up and stared.
"I couldn't see them having sex either, but I can see her having sex with you," Tori stated bluntly. I laughed hysterically.
"OH! So you can't see her having sex with Cody, but you CAN see her having sex with me! how does that make sense?!" I cried out. The whole linch table stared at me. I looked down and continued to eat.
Also funny, I watched as Tejas Dave fell off his high horse, literally. He was sitting on a stool, and some how the stoll slipped from inder him and he almost fell right on his ass. Nice of you to finally act like your normal, Tejas. I give you Kudos.
So now that we all have had our laughs, on to more important matters...
Texting. Everyone does it. I text, you text, our best friends text, my mother texts, and I know even teachers text! (I had to text Mr. Wallace before. He text back.)
What is annoying about this texting phenomenon is that it gets in the way of E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! Sometimes, it takes forever just to write a blog because I'm getting so many text messages. I will say that this is the first blog post that I ever typed where 3 or 4 people aren't texting me at once. But that's not the point. My father once told me "You use too much minutes, text more." Is that what our world has come to? Sadly, yes it is. Deal with it. If you can't text, you're a loser. I have a nice Blackberry Pearl, and I love to text with it. The problem is, the keys look like this:
Yeah, it's hard to type like that. The words TRY and YET use the same keys. This looks like my phone except that doesnt really look like a white ball in the middle, but rather, a black thing. Ehhh......
Another serious topic is stress. Everyone feels it at some point. It's not something you can run away from, but I've been feeling it more than usual. I have been studying for hours on World History so I can get a 4 on that AP exam, and FINALLY I'm taking the test tomorrow. Then I can finally relax.
But until then, I'm digging into my Prinston Review Manuel and saying stupid things like "I conqured all the lands from the Byzantine Empire to the Pacific Ocean like Chiggis Khan did for the Mongols! Yes, I really said something like that after dinner and i was pretending the placemats were different areas of Asia and Europe and I was taking them over.
I was hoping to relax today and go to Courtney Simmon's house since Anthony Wardlaw is out of town working, but again she lead me on, making me think there was a high possibility for me to go, and then "no you can't, sorry"
DAMNIT BITCH! I love you, but I hate being turned down over and over and over again. I feel like I should just quit. I feel like I'm a guy and I'm asking her out, but she keeps saying no.
By the way men, if you do that: PATHETIC! No is no.
I just hope that one day Courtney will finally want to hang out with me again. I feel like she's keeping something from me, like she can't trust me. I've never done anything wrong, damn!
By the way, the title means "Be What You Are" in Latin(:
Relationship Status: Might be going on a date soon! (More details when they come)
Birthday: September 25th
Contact Info:
Email: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone: Ask me for it!
"I couldn't see Lauren materbate," I said to Tori as i stared at Lauren Mikeska. Tori nodded.
"Yeah, she looks too innocent, thats why I can't see her having sex with Cody," he added.
"I couldn't see her having sex with Cody either. She looks like she would like it soft and loving, and he looks like he would like it hard and rough," I said. Lauren looked up and stared.
"I couldn't see them having sex either, but I can see her having sex with you," Tori stated bluntly. I laughed hysterically.
"OH! So you can't see her having sex with Cody, but you CAN see her having sex with me! how does that make sense?!" I cried out. The whole linch table stared at me. I looked down and continued to eat.
Also funny, I watched as Tejas Dave fell off his high horse, literally. He was sitting on a stool, and some how the stoll slipped from inder him and he almost fell right on his ass. Nice of you to finally act like your normal, Tejas. I give you Kudos.
So now that we all have had our laughs, on to more important matters...
Texting. Everyone does it. I text, you text, our best friends text, my mother texts, and I know even teachers text! (I had to text Mr. Wallace before. He text back.)
What is annoying about this texting phenomenon is that it gets in the way of E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G! Sometimes, it takes forever just to write a blog because I'm getting so many text messages. I will say that this is the first blog post that I ever typed where 3 or 4 people aren't texting me at once. But that's not the point. My father once told me "You use too much minutes, text more." Is that what our world has come to? Sadly, yes it is. Deal with it. If you can't text, you're a loser. I have a nice Blackberry Pearl, and I love to text with it. The problem is, the keys look like this:
Yeah, it's hard to type like that. The words TRY and YET use the same keys. This looks like my phone except that doesnt really look like a white ball in the middle, but rather, a black thing. Ehhh......
Another serious topic is stress. Everyone feels it at some point. It's not something you can run away from, but I've been feeling it more than usual. I have been studying for hours on World History so I can get a 4 on that AP exam, and FINALLY I'm taking the test tomorrow. Then I can finally relax.
But until then, I'm digging into my Prinston Review Manuel and saying stupid things like "I conqured all the lands from the Byzantine Empire to the Pacific Ocean like Chiggis Khan did for the Mongols! Yes, I really said something like that after dinner and i was pretending the placemats were different areas of Asia and Europe and I was taking them over.
I was hoping to relax today and go to Courtney Simmon's house since Anthony Wardlaw is out of town working, but again she lead me on, making me think there was a high possibility for me to go, and then "no you can't, sorry"
DAMNIT BITCH! I love you, but I hate being turned down over and over and over again. I feel like I should just quit. I feel like I'm a guy and I'm asking her out, but she keeps saying no.
By the way men, if you do that: PATHETIC! No is no.
I just hope that one day Courtney will finally want to hang out with me again. I feel like she's keeping something from me, like she can't trust me. I've never done anything wrong, damn!
By the way, the title means "Be What You Are" in Latin(:
Relationship Status: Might be going on a date soon! (More details when they come)
Birthday: September 25th
Contact Info:
Email: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone: Ask me for it!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Why does depression hurt?
Before I talk about how depressed I am, first I'm going to bitch and moan about lunch today. So a couple weeks ago, Mrs. Breymeyer took up my phone. That isn't such a big deal, except I've paid $45 already since i started high school. Yeah, it's outrageous to pay $15 dollars for your phone back. Anyways, I didn't eat lunch today because I had lunch detention. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!?! I didn't know Mrs. Breymeyer gave me lunch detention, that's bullshit and she knows it.
But to be honest, it was kind of entertaining and I completed all my chemistry work instead of eating because I'm too busy studying for my World History AP Exam. BLAHHHH!!!! I have to study human history from, like, 8000 B.C.E to the present time. That's alot of history and I'm about to burn out. On top of that, Mrs. Kelly has been giving out more homework than usual. Stupid Algebra 2!!!! It's almost the end of the school year; I shouldn't have to do this much work.
On top of all the school work, I've been more depressed than usual. I think it started with Anthony Wardlaw and how he fooled me, but that's not all of it. Josh Rutland called me around midnight last night and it was really sad. It was really late, so I barely remember the conversation, but I know I wanted to cry. He loves me so much, and he wont just move on. I'm not good for him. Him and I are just so vastly different, and that's why we worked for as long as we did, but he's just in a different place than I am, and he deserves to be happy. Anthony says I should just be a bitch, but he's the first guy to truly love me. Don't ask me why I'm throwing that away. I'm just stupid.
What also depresses me is Courtney Simmons. She is my best friend (Like Lauren Mikeska is) and she is like my Wife. She means alot to me, and it doesn't help that I have a small crush on her.
If I didn't state this before, I'm bisexual.
Anyways, she means alot to me, and I want her to trust me and everything. The thing is, I feel like I'm losing her, and I don't like that at all. Every time I try to hang out with her, she has something else to do. She blames her mom, but she always blames her mom. It's her little brother and sister's (Marky and Heaven) birthday party Saturday adn I really want to go so I can hang out with her like we used to. And, Anthony can finally apologize in person for what he did to me. I believe we'll just be better off as friends. I can't go through that again.
Which reminds me, Anthony promises that he'll never do that again. I dont know how much i can trust that, but I will. We're just friends after all. It's not like we were dating and he cheated on me. Now we will never date.
Well, never say never. But for now, we won't.
I just want the school year to end so then I can have a fun summer and start over next year. I'll be a junior and scream "HELL YES!!! I'M ALMOST OUT OF THIS STUPID SCHOOL!"
But honestly, I'll miss the idiots, the homos, and the bitches I call friends. They are all near and dear to my heart.
Relationship Status: Sadly Single
Birthday: September Twenty-Fifth
Contact Info for all the people who wish to speak to me personally:
E-mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone Number: Ask!
But to be honest, it was kind of entertaining and I completed all my chemistry work instead of eating because I'm too busy studying for my World History AP Exam. BLAHHHH!!!! I have to study human history from, like, 8000 B.C.E to the present time. That's alot of history and I'm about to burn out. On top of that, Mrs. Kelly has been giving out more homework than usual. Stupid Algebra 2!!!! It's almost the end of the school year; I shouldn't have to do this much work.
On top of all the school work, I've been more depressed than usual. I think it started with Anthony Wardlaw and how he fooled me, but that's not all of it. Josh Rutland called me around midnight last night and it was really sad. It was really late, so I barely remember the conversation, but I know I wanted to cry. He loves me so much, and he wont just move on. I'm not good for him. Him and I are just so vastly different, and that's why we worked for as long as we did, but he's just in a different place than I am, and he deserves to be happy. Anthony says I should just be a bitch, but he's the first guy to truly love me. Don't ask me why I'm throwing that away. I'm just stupid.
What also depresses me is Courtney Simmons. She is my best friend (Like Lauren Mikeska is) and she is like my Wife. She means alot to me, and it doesn't help that I have a small crush on her.
If I didn't state this before, I'm bisexual.
Anyways, she means alot to me, and I want her to trust me and everything. The thing is, I feel like I'm losing her, and I don't like that at all. Every time I try to hang out with her, she has something else to do. She blames her mom, but she always blames her mom. It's her little brother and sister's (Marky and Heaven) birthday party Saturday adn I really want to go so I can hang out with her like we used to. And, Anthony can finally apologize in person for what he did to me. I believe we'll just be better off as friends. I can't go through that again.
Which reminds me, Anthony promises that he'll never do that again. I dont know how much i can trust that, but I will. We're just friends after all. It's not like we were dating and he cheated on me. Now we will never date.
Well, never say never. But for now, we won't.
I just want the school year to end so then I can have a fun summer and start over next year. I'll be a junior and scream "HELL YES!!! I'M ALMOST OUT OF THIS STUPID SCHOOL!"
But honestly, I'll miss the idiots, the homos, and the bitches I call friends. They are all near and dear to my heart.
Relationship Status: Sadly Single
Birthday: September Twenty-Fifth
Contact Info for all the people who wish to speak to me personally:
E-mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone Number: Ask!
Monday, May 10, 2010
What to do.....
But first, I have a funny little piece of gossip:
So Lauren infored me that she saw Grey and Misty sucking face in front of the vending machine. So usually, the guy would eye the exgirlfriend to be like "yeah, I have me a new girl, look, we're kissing in front of you." But instead, it was MISTY who was giving Laruen the "Jealous?" glare.
What Misty doesn't know is that Lauren doesn't care. she was just like "bitch, you can have him, I have a cheese danish I wanna eat!" and left the scene. That's my girl!
Ok, so of all the people I could get a text from in the middle of the night, I got one from my ex, Josh Rutland (we were dating for about a year and two months before i broke up with him. It was too serious). His story was that his phone got in an accident and it broke and he stole a new phone (a week and a half later) and he missed me so much. So as we were catching up, he begs for me back. I honestly love him, but I'm 16 years old and I haven't even had a taste of the "college life" that I've been waiting for because I'm still a Sophmore in high school. He talks to me like I'm 35 and I can support myself. Actually, he says he'll support me and take care of me and I'll never have to feel alone and there will be no money issue. He wants me to be his trophy wife or something. No! A Gold digger! HAHAHA!!! Like he actually has that kind of money.
But that's not the point I'm making. I think Josh would be happier without me. Thoughout our relationship, I've felt like i just abused the fuck out of him, and that's not fair. I want him to be happy, and happy isn't with me. I came to terms with that when I didn't talk to him for almost 2 weeks. I moved on, and it's about time I let him do the same. Shame, because we would have made wonderful babies (half joking).
Thinking about it all, what is marriage? I see my parents fight all the time. That can't be happiness, and if it is, I want to be single for the rest of my life. I don't (fuck people, stop texting me when I'm writing a blog!) want to be with the same guy all my life unless I'm, like 35 with kids, then I understand. I'm a social butterfly, I like new people, I like to try new things and be able to have whatever I want. Have you read Brave New World? They are free to have sex with whoever they want, whenever they want, and they take soma holidays, which is like getting really fucked up high. Doesn't that sound like something you would like?
Maybe I'm crazy, I mean, why would someone like me who hasn't had barely any sex like it and want it so much? Well, to be honest, I don't. I just H-A-T-E the idea that we have to settle down with one person. I H-A-T-E the concept pf falling in love and getting married. I want to have kids, sure, but I also don't want to pick a guy and stay with him forever. I would like to get married, but only if we were to have an open marriage or something. What if I go to a party when I'm 29 and there's a really hot person there and they wanna "try me" (as Brave New World would put it). Well, I would like the choice to do it or not.
That's what it all comes down to: Choice. I want to chose, not have some moral code eating at my conscience saying that I shouldn't this and I shouldn't that. We should ALWAYS have a choice. Falling in love, being in a relationship, that doesn't give you much choice. Maybe I'm weird, maybe I'm wrong. But maybe, just maybe, I'm right in a way too?
Relationship status: Remaining Free!
Birthday: 9/25
Contact Info:
E-Mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone#: Ask please(:
Update me on any news or gossip. I would love to mention you here!
So Lauren infored me that she saw Grey and Misty sucking face in front of the vending machine. So usually, the guy would eye the exgirlfriend to be like "yeah, I have me a new girl, look, we're kissing in front of you." But instead, it was MISTY who was giving Laruen the "Jealous?" glare.
What Misty doesn't know is that Lauren doesn't care. she was just like "bitch, you can have him, I have a cheese danish I wanna eat!" and left the scene. That's my girl!
Ok, so of all the people I could get a text from in the middle of the night, I got one from my ex, Josh Rutland (we were dating for about a year and two months before i broke up with him. It was too serious). His story was that his phone got in an accident and it broke and he stole a new phone (a week and a half later) and he missed me so much. So as we were catching up, he begs for me back. I honestly love him, but I'm 16 years old and I haven't even had a taste of the "college life" that I've been waiting for because I'm still a Sophmore in high school. He talks to me like I'm 35 and I can support myself. Actually, he says he'll support me and take care of me and I'll never have to feel alone and there will be no money issue. He wants me to be his trophy wife or something. No! A Gold digger! HAHAHA!!! Like he actually has that kind of money.
But that's not the point I'm making. I think Josh would be happier without me. Thoughout our relationship, I've felt like i just abused the fuck out of him, and that's not fair. I want him to be happy, and happy isn't with me. I came to terms with that when I didn't talk to him for almost 2 weeks. I moved on, and it's about time I let him do the same. Shame, because we would have made wonderful babies (half joking).
Thinking about it all, what is marriage? I see my parents fight all the time. That can't be happiness, and if it is, I want to be single for the rest of my life. I don't (fuck people, stop texting me when I'm writing a blog!) want to be with the same guy all my life unless I'm, like 35 with kids, then I understand. I'm a social butterfly, I like new people, I like to try new things and be able to have whatever I want. Have you read Brave New World? They are free to have sex with whoever they want, whenever they want, and they take soma holidays, which is like getting really fucked up high. Doesn't that sound like something you would like?
Maybe I'm crazy, I mean, why would someone like me who hasn't had barely any sex like it and want it so much? Well, to be honest, I don't. I just H-A-T-E the idea that we have to settle down with one person. I H-A-T-E the concept pf falling in love and getting married. I want to have kids, sure, but I also don't want to pick a guy and stay with him forever. I would like to get married, but only if we were to have an open marriage or something. What if I go to a party when I'm 29 and there's a really hot person there and they wanna "try me" (as Brave New World would put it). Well, I would like the choice to do it or not.
That's what it all comes down to: Choice. I want to chose, not have some moral code eating at my conscience saying that I shouldn't this and I shouldn't that. We should ALWAYS have a choice. Falling in love, being in a relationship, that doesn't give you much choice. Maybe I'm weird, maybe I'm wrong. But maybe, just maybe, I'm right in a way too?
Relationship status: Remaining Free!
Birthday: 9/25
Contact Info:
E-Mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone#: Ask please(:
Update me on any news or gossip. I would love to mention you here!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
When is enough really enough?
So, there's a man I like very much, Anthony Wardlaw, and he lied about having a girlfriend! Should I trust him? Yeah, I'm not so sure either, so we're still just friends like we have always been, and he has a lot to prove to me if he wants to be with me, if it was true he wanted to be. I don't think I can trust him in a relationship anyways, considering he has a girlfriend and lied about it. I'm not counting on us ever being together anyways; the man LIED about having a GIRLFRIEND! Men always just want one thing. He has alot to prove if he actually wants to be with me (yes, that was a bit redundant...), but how will I know it's not a lie? See, I don't! He fucked up his chances HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Should I date him later when he makes up for the sweet lies and the broken promises?
Right now, I don't think so! But he's still my friend against Lauren Mikeska's will. "Make him suffer, bitch!" she would say. "He has to beg for your forgiveness!" I love that girl.
So yesterday I went for a walk and Anthony (of all people that could have texted me to do something stupid that I know will end badly somehow) asked me to meet him at Sports Clips. I was in the back of the next neighbourhood (more than half way there. I think) when i got a text from Step Dad saying I had to go home because we were going to the movies. Damn, I didn't get my apology in person. Not that I care that much, he lied to me. He'll be saying sorry for the rest of his life if we're still friends that long. And if he's really that sorry.
We did talk most of the night though, and his apology was very sweet, but I'm not falling in that trap again. He says he loves me (probably as a friend, since he DOES have a girlfriend as far as i know). I just said "love you too" and moved on to the next conversation. I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I felt the hurt coming back.
Since I went to the movies yesterday, here's my amature review:
Iron Man 2: This movie picks up right where the other one ended, only we find out Tony Stark is dying. Basic plot: He has to defeat some super smart Russian guy who's father used to work for Tony's father. On top of that, he has to find a new element or combination of elements that wont kill him. Does he defeat the Russian guy to save his city? Does he find that magic element or compound that won't kill him? Watch and find out! Rate 3 1/2 out of 4 stars for great action and great humour.
Kick-Ass: This isn't a great stoner movie, but it IS a great movie. It's about a loser who wants to be a super hero and get the girl. Now, the twist is Big Daddy, and he wants to kill this big CEO man for what he has done. He trains his daughter to be a big crime fighter as well, she's Hit Girl, and trust me, you'll L-O-V-E her! Does Kick-Ass win the girl? Does Kick-Ass get his ass kicked? Does Big Daddy and Hit Girl get revenge? Find out! Rate 4 out of 5 stars for unneccessary cursing and insane violence. (Yes, I am aware that I used a different Star ratio. Taht's my perogative)
Relationship status: Still Single
Birthday: September 25 (Save the date :D)
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Right now, I don't think so! But he's still my friend against Lauren Mikeska's will. "Make him suffer, bitch!" she would say. "He has to beg for your forgiveness!" I love that girl.
So yesterday I went for a walk and Anthony (of all people that could have texted me to do something stupid that I know will end badly somehow) asked me to meet him at Sports Clips. I was in the back of the next neighbourhood (more than half way there. I think) when i got a text from Step Dad saying I had to go home because we were going to the movies. Damn, I didn't get my apology in person. Not that I care that much, he lied to me. He'll be saying sorry for the rest of his life if we're still friends that long. And if he's really that sorry.
We did talk most of the night though, and his apology was very sweet, but I'm not falling in that trap again. He says he loves me (probably as a friend, since he DOES have a girlfriend as far as i know). I just said "love you too" and moved on to the next conversation. I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I felt the hurt coming back.
Since I went to the movies yesterday, here's my amature review:
Iron Man 2: This movie picks up right where the other one ended, only we find out Tony Stark is dying. Basic plot: He has to defeat some super smart Russian guy who's father used to work for Tony's father. On top of that, he has to find a new element or combination of elements that wont kill him. Does he defeat the Russian guy to save his city? Does he find that magic element or compound that won't kill him? Watch and find out! Rate 3 1/2 out of 4 stars for great action and great humour.
Kick-Ass: This isn't a great stoner movie, but it IS a great movie. It's about a loser who wants to be a super hero and get the girl. Now, the twist is Big Daddy, and he wants to kill this big CEO man for what he has done. He trains his daughter to be a big crime fighter as well, she's Hit Girl, and trust me, you'll L-O-V-E her! Does Kick-Ass win the girl? Does Kick-Ass get his ass kicked? Does Big Daddy and Hit Girl get revenge? Find out! Rate 4 out of 5 stars for unneccessary cursing and insane violence. (Yes, I am aware that I used a different Star ratio. Taht's my perogative)
Relationship status: Still Single
Birthday: September 25 (Save the date :D)
Contact me with any News or Gossip at Pearland High School!
E-mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
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Phone: Ask me
Saturday, May 8, 2010
About a Girl Like Me...
For my first blog post, I have decided that maybe you should get to know me, and ironically i guess, there was plenty of drama in the last couple days. I'll start with myself: I'm a strong female, and i dont like to see my friends get fucked around with. That said, you dont fuck with me either. I don't take any shit from anyone because too many people took advantage of my kindness.
5/5/10: Saw Grey Shannon with his ugly girlfriend, Misty in the Commons. I decided to give him a taste of what he did to my best friend Lauren Mikeska. In the end of it all, nothing happened, and I think Misty's face was more sunken in than usual. Desperate men go for desperate woman.
The rest of the day, i was really pissed off and I took a practice AP exam for World History. By the middle of the second essay, I was cursing all over the place. "Fuck you and fuck this test!" Then a text from Mother: call your grandma when you finish, Mike and I are at the Dynamo game. "What a bitch!" then everyone stared at me.... "Sorry, it was my mom, she's at a soccer game and I'm stressed out....?" Then went outside to yell. Tejas Dave and his dad stared at me like i was possessed by deamons. That made my day...
5/6/10: This morning I did tell Grey something. "If you and your girlfriend are so happy together, why do you ask other girls for nude pictures"
"I don't," he says. Bullshit, I have great sources.
"Yeah, you do, and you're lying."
"I'm not lying," he denies again.
"Yes you are! Just admit it!"
"Well, if she sent the pictures, that's slutty on her part," Misty cuts in. I gave her this death glare. She's lucky I'm trying to go to a private college and i cant get suspended. Bitch looked ugly today.
"She's not a slut!" I yell at Misty. "Just admit what you did," I told Grey.
"I didn't do that, now go away."
"Let's stop acting like third graders and astart acting like high schoolers," Misty added. Bitch. Bitch. Bitch.
"You fucked up!" I told Grey as I bumped past him. I could murder him.
In other news, I turned in the letter to start a Gay-Straight Alliance at school. I hope it works.
5/7/10: It was a good day actually, I was going to sleepover Courtney Simmons' house, but in the end that didn't work. I was really pissed off then, but now I'm ok with it. There's not much you can do when she has a date.
Later, I caught Anthony Wardlaw in a lie. Dickhead tried to cover it up. This proves all men are the same, no matter how old they are. Bastard is lucky I'm still his friend. Lying to me is a no no.
Threewayed with Lauren Mikeska and her boyfriend Cody Jackson that night to bitch about it. I must say, that was quite fun. In the end, I went to sleep with a smile on my face, even if Cody was crying before he hung up. Poor kid, I'm glad Lauren was there to help.
5/8/10: Just woke up and started a blog(: They will be more day by day than this one, promise!
Relationship status: Single
Birthday: September 25
Contact me with any News or Gossip at Pearland High School!
E-mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone: Ask me.
5/5/10: Saw Grey Shannon with his ugly girlfriend, Misty in the Commons. I decided to give him a taste of what he did to my best friend Lauren Mikeska. In the end of it all, nothing happened, and I think Misty's face was more sunken in than usual. Desperate men go for desperate woman.
The rest of the day, i was really pissed off and I took a practice AP exam for World History. By the middle of the second essay, I was cursing all over the place. "Fuck you and fuck this test!" Then a text from Mother: call your grandma when you finish, Mike and I are at the Dynamo game. "What a bitch!" then everyone stared at me.... "Sorry, it was my mom, she's at a soccer game and I'm stressed out....?" Then went outside to yell. Tejas Dave and his dad stared at me like i was possessed by deamons. That made my day...
5/6/10: This morning I did tell Grey something. "If you and your girlfriend are so happy together, why do you ask other girls for nude pictures"
"I don't," he says. Bullshit, I have great sources.
"Yeah, you do, and you're lying."
"I'm not lying," he denies again.
"Yes you are! Just admit it!"
"Well, if she sent the pictures, that's slutty on her part," Misty cuts in. I gave her this death glare. She's lucky I'm trying to go to a private college and i cant get suspended. Bitch looked ugly today.
"She's not a slut!" I yell at Misty. "Just admit what you did," I told Grey.
"I didn't do that, now go away."
"Let's stop acting like third graders and astart acting like high schoolers," Misty added. Bitch. Bitch. Bitch.
"You fucked up!" I told Grey as I bumped past him. I could murder him.
In other news, I turned in the letter to start a Gay-Straight Alliance at school. I hope it works.
5/7/10: It was a good day actually, I was going to sleepover Courtney Simmons' house, but in the end that didn't work. I was really pissed off then, but now I'm ok with it. There's not much you can do when she has a date.
Later, I caught Anthony Wardlaw in a lie. Dickhead tried to cover it up. This proves all men are the same, no matter how old they are. Bastard is lucky I'm still his friend. Lying to me is a no no.
Threewayed with Lauren Mikeska and her boyfriend Cody Jackson that night to bitch about it. I must say, that was quite fun. In the end, I went to sleep with a smile on my face, even if Cody was crying before he hung up. Poor kid, I'm glad Lauren was there to help.
5/8/10: Just woke up and started a blog(: They will be more day by day than this one, promise!
Relationship status: Single
Birthday: September 25
Contact me with any News or Gossip at Pearland High School!
E-mail: cookiekid93@yahoo.com
Facebook: www.facebook.com/nevermakeawish
Twitter: www.twitter.com/nevermakeawish
Myspace: www.myspace.com/nevermakeawish
Phone: Ask me.
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